Wednesday, March 31, 2010


3 must have been his favourite number. The 1st hint he gave me dat he is eager 2 see d world was at 3am. And he's born on the 3rd of March at 10.30am.

Now, after one year, I found the answer of living.... Him.

For Neyong, Ngian, Mama Hayyat, Mamit, Abua, Hasya, Nana, and BabyLa:

Ryyan now:

  • can say few words like bird, ball, mama, eddy, nenek, duck, mamam and No no no! (Sambil geleng kepala), there and pointing at somethg.... Others r just baby mumbling dat i will anwers "oh really?"

  • He got 2 teeth below n and 2 di atas n will curi2 bite u wen u suap him food just for d sake of it.

  • He loves music, pantang dgr music n he will move his body like ulat bulu or mr bean. He can sing old macdonald n Happy song

  • He will turn away fr me if he's gonna do smthg dat he knw wld make me angry... Konon2 so dat I x see... Like putting dirty stuff into his mouth

  • He's mastering his walking skill n controlling his momentum

  • Can follow simple instruction such as asking him 2 sayang/ kiss u, "come" as in follow u, "take", "yeep" (he'll lay down n pretend 2 sleep), he'll salam siap wit cium tangan lg, giving hi five, "open", "stand up", 'sit", "hands up" and "give"

  • He will put up his hand wen i say "ryyan pls baca doa"

  • He'll point to his nose wen u ask "where's nose?". Not really successful wit ear tho

  • Don't even try 2 say No or Don't and he'll do d exact opposite sambil smiling and looking at u, jst 2 temp u.... Cheeky, dats my boy!

Kesimpulannya, at this stage he's my own spongebob coz he can and will absorb anythg i teach him to do

Honestly, I never read those baby milestone stuff. I believe those thgs r 1 of d caused parents getting crazy n psychoed... Not dat I wanna b ignorant n x care abt my baby's development, but I wish to let them grow at their own pace la for god's sake.

Happy One year, Ryyan Esqandarsyah. May Allah bless you and protect you throughout your journey in life.

For all the wrong things I've done in my life, I've must have done something right to deserve u.

Monday, January 11, 2010


This picture is to remind me of my lowest point in my life... sigh, 2009 wasn't my year
Tis pic was taken during my 2nd operation, exactly 1 month after I had Ryyan. I don't wanna really blog abt d details coz it will open up d old wound. It is smthg dat I wanted to bury far far away at d bck of my mind.
Tis is d pic to remind me how I laid on d operation table starring at the lights n thinking wat will happen 2 my newborn baby if smthg goes wrong. Tis pic is to remind me all d test they did on me jst to figure out wat went wrong; x-ray, blood test, urine test, ultra sound, endoscopic, CT scan. Tis pic is to remind me how I celebrated my 30th bday wit catheter n urine bag still attached to me n I barely cld walk or stand properly. Tis pic reminded me how i cried every day and made my family cried too coz they couldn't stand seeing me almost losing it.
Why didn't I take legal action to d hospital and d doctor still remains a mystery. Somehow God gave me d highest feeling of redha dat I can ever imagine. I don't even feel angry at d doctor coz I'm sure it was never his intention 4 it 2 happen. U may think it is so stupid of me. Bt being forgiving heals u faster.
Y I still keep tis one piece of picture? Because it also reminded me dat no matter wat, family will always be there for u
and now, I have Ryyan
Therefore, I am blessed.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


awwww... sweet!

entry coming soon