Monday, January 11, 2010

2009


This picture is to remind me of my lowest point in my life... sigh, 2009 wasn't my year
Tis pic was taken during my 2nd operation, exactly 1 month after I had Ryyan. I don't wanna really blog abt d details coz it will open up d old wound. It is smthg dat I wanted to bury far far away at d bck of my mind.
Tis is d pic to remind me how I laid on d operation table starring at the lights n thinking wat will happen 2 my newborn baby if smthg goes wrong. Tis pic is to remind me all d test they did on me jst to figure out wat went wrong; x-ray, blood test, urine test, ultra sound, endoscopic, CT scan. Tis pic is to remind me how I celebrated my 30th bday wit catheter n urine bag still attached to me n I barely cld walk or stand properly. Tis pic reminded me how i cried every day and made my family cried too coz they couldn't stand seeing me almost losing it.
Why didn't I take legal action to d hospital and d doctor still remains a mystery. Somehow God gave me d highest feeling of redha dat I can ever imagine. I don't even feel angry at d doctor coz I'm sure it was never his intention 4 it 2 happen. U may think it is so stupid of me. Bt being forgiving heals u faster.
Y I still keep tis one piece of picture? Because it also reminded me dat no matter wat, family will always be there for u
and now, I have Ryyan
Therefore, I am blessed.